What do you want?

What do you want?

Lately I’ve been struggling to pin down exactly what I want. Out of life, love, location. You name it. I feel restless and adrift and not sure how to move forward. In short, I’m stuck. Stuck between what I want and what I have. Where I am and where I’m going . Who I am and who I want to be. 

In these times, I find it helpful to ground myself in my values. In what’s important to me. Always, at the top of this list is love. A meaningful connection to another human being. Someone who can see me at my worst and still stick around for my best. Who I can pour any wild, reckless, crazy thought out to and won’t blink. But instead will meet me where I am and run wild with me.

Someone  who sees me. Who sees the real me behind the masks I wear. Who will be just as intense and driven and purposeful as I am. Whose goals may be totally different than mine, but shares the same desire for connection. The person who inspires me to be a better version of myself.

Romance Novels give me this outlet. To imagine the thousands of alternate lives I could live if only I took a leap of faith. A risk. A jump into the unknown. I have gravitated to romance from adolescence for solace and escape. And hope. That I, too, will find my own happiness and adventure. 

Books are a great way to explore the thousand wants and condense it down to what are needs. And what are values in love and in life. 

So, the question is, What do you want?